Tuesday, May 30, 2017
Monday, May 29, 2017
A few months ago I claimed this as my family's Mission statement:
Know Him and make Him known
I think from before we even started a family, from before we were even a couple this was my goal for life. But a few months ago, I consciously claimed it to my children and John. This is our official mission statement. These are our only goals in this life:
*make Jesus known
All my life choices... all my decisions... I want them to filter back to this....
But sometimes life just doesn't LOOK like what you thought it would look like. Sometimes the pieces are scattered all over the floor and they make no discernible image. Sometimes words like cancer, and guilty, and unfaithful shatter the image we have of what our life was going to be like. I've been there. In fact for about a year and a half now, my tent's been pitched there. In this wilderness... where I keep looking around thinking THIS is MY life?!?!? How can that BE??? Even though the Bible constantly disproves this notion, somehow I keep thinking if you love God, if you follow His decrees, if you dedicate your life to serving Him and doing His will then things should go your way. But they don't always. And in fact often in Scripture I see the opposite... for Joseph... for Job... for Jesus!
Recently in one of the particularly dark shadows of this valley we're in, I stopped... I looked around at the UGLY filth and thought how can this awful landscape be my life. Then right there, midthought the Holy Spirit spoke to me. And I looked around again at the ugly... the waste... the broken parts... and I thought, here, at the bottom of this outhouse pit do I know Him? YES! Possibly more intimately than ever before. Am I making Him known? YES! Over and over... blow after blow... sitting here on this hardly inhabited island waiting for the Lord to send a search plane to rescue us... I am SCREAMING my belief that eventually HE will have HIS way. No matter how dark and desolate this gets, I will NOT stop saying HIS WILL BE DONE. So yes... this IS my life. The ugly... the broken... the awful.... if those things are making me know Him and I'm making Him known... it's. my. life.
I realized life's ick... Satan's attacks... these potholes along the way.... they don't matter.... what matters is that my mission statement stays true: know Him and make Him known.
The things that happen along your road to Heaven are not what's important. Don't let them define you! It's your mission. It's your journey. Those are the things that matter.
I want to know Christ....
Thursday, May 18, 2017
*Declan Fisher O'Brien didn't fall down a flight of stairs.
*We have great health insurance.
*I love the doctor we found.
*Not only will my doctor repair my ruptured tendon, but he'll remove this deformity thing on my heel that has given me two decades worth of tendonitis.
*My bosses are SO supportive.
*My job is very flexible.
*Because I work-at-home, I will be out of work less than 2 days.
*Because I am such a taskmaster my children are fully capable of running this house in my absence.
*John takes such great care of me.
*My office, my bed and a full bathroom are all on the same level.
*(and what you all kept telling me when we moved into this dream house) our house is only two blocks from the hospital!
|Did I do that??|
Wednesday, May 10, 2017
Today it hit me.... maybe all the prosperity people are right... see I've long had a problem with those who preach the message that "God wants you to prosper!" Because that's not what I read in my Bible... that's not what I've seen working it's way out in my life or the life of my friends... but today I thought maybe those people are RIGHT. Not about the prospering part but at least about the positivity behind it.
Let me back it up a bit in case I lost you.... the very first time I had a mammogram I had to go back for additional tests to rule out something nefarious. I remember the fear in the pit of my belly... I remember trying to convince myself, "God's got this." But I remember STRUGGLING too because see I know that sometimes children get cancer, sometimes daddy's don't come home, sometimes it doesn't all work out like a fairy tale, and those times God is STILL in control.
So now fast forward back to where I was before.... today I was driving down the road and it HIT me... like a Mack Truck crashing into a VW bug... what if they're RIGHT.... What if believing God is gonna heal you, rescue you, provide for you is what it is really about... then it doesn't matter if the rescue EVER COMES.... What matters is you NEVER gave up hope... cuz the ONLY thing we can do in the face of a hurricane ripping through our lives is TRUST in the only One who controls the outcome.
See the outcome isn't ours to do.... what got us here can't be undone.... how we'll deal with a... b... or c... not the question. What's ours... the ONLY thing God calls us to... often the only thing we CAN do.... is BELIEVE.
So maybe these prosperity people who tout this God WANTS you to live in health and wealth mantra... maybe they have actually got it RIGHT. Because they refuse to entertain any other possible outcome but one where God REIGNS in the end.
Just a lil food for thought....
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;
Saturday, May 6, 2017
Last night John and I watched the movie Lone Survivor. I'm not sure I can in good conscience reccomend the movie. It's quite brutal.... the gore of war... the LANGUAGE of soldiers... most of all the TERROR that one day that could be MY military-loving boy doing that. It was pretty intense! I feel like my ears need to be washed out with soap after all those cuss words, and I stopped the movie at one point to BEG my child NOT to choose that path. However, that SECULAR, brutal movie had a message for my soul.
I'm pretty sure these aren't going to be spoilers. Heck, the title of the movie pretty much tells the end, right?...even if you never heard the story of this group of Navy SEALs... But just in case, I'm warning you... this blog will give away parts of the movie.
The mission of this group of SEALs is compromised, and they have a choice before them. Basically they can choose to do the morally right thing which will be HARD, or they can save their own butts and save their mission by doing the wrong thing. Their leader chooses the moral high ground with DISASTROUS results. And here's where my sermon began. Sometimes doing the right thing has UNPLEASANT results. Sometimes the moral high ground is rocky and FULL of Taliban soldiers with RPGs. BUT just because you suffer HORRIBLY doesn't make the moral high ground a wrong choice. Right is ALWAYS right, even when it's hard. Sometimes doing the right thing just makes the enemy RAGE against you even harder. But it is ALWAYS good to choose what is RIGHT and even if you lose for choosing it, if you honor God by choosing right you will win in the end.
At one point in the movie all four of these SEALs are wounded. They have tumbled down not one, but TWO rocky mountain sides. They've been shot. One guy was shot in the BACK OF THE HEAD. Another guy had all the fingers on one hand shot off. BUT. THEY. STILL. KEEP. GOING. They NEVER quit. They're trying to reach flat ground so they can more easily fight the enemy. They get separated from one guy, and the Taliban catches him. These men... battered, bruised, shot, exhausted.... do you know what they do? They don't turn tail and run. They don't write their guy off and save themselves. They TURN AROUND and start pushing back UP THE HILL to save their guy. AMAZING! INCREDIBLE! This goes WAY beyond being a hero. But yet isn't this what Christ is calling us to EVERY day. Lay down our lives to show Jesus to a dying world in the hopes that we might save just ONE man.
The movie was superbly meaningful to me. I wept. I learned. I was inspired. And I just want to say, "Lord, I will keep choosing right. No matter how wrong this world thinks I am. I will NEVER stop doing what You are calling me to. No matter how hard Satan rages against me. I will persevere!"
Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him.