Saturday, April 30, 2016

I'm an idiot

It's silly really... maybe even just STUPID.  I find myself in yet ANOTHER situation where the only thing I can do is trust God.... where I hear Him whispering "Be still... let me fight this battle for you." And in my human fallibility I stubbornly cling to my fear. As if He isn't the all-knowing Creator of this earth I tell Him, "But God, THIS could happen...." then "Dear God, have you considered THAT???" As if THIS and THAT are of any concern to the ALL-KNOWING, CREATOR of this earth!

I'm changing my mind... it isn't silly... it IS stupid.  For a girl who has been carried through her husband's brain surgery and not one but TWO neck surgeries.... a mom who has been carried through her babies enduring an endoscopy to remove a foreign object, trigger thumb surgery, a tonsillectomy, eye muscle surgery AND a broken and re-broken arm... for a woman who has endured more financial tragedies than she cares to detail here.... for a Christian who has been SAVED of her sins and HEALED from an eating disorder... for that person to sit here and say "but God, what if it comes to THAT?" is sheer idiocy! I guess I've never really claimed to be the sharpest tool in the shed.

Here's the thing.... He KNOWS tomorrow! He's been to the finish line.  HE controls my destiny.... not a doctor or a bill collector or a lawyer or the President or an addiction... HE controls my destiny.  It ain't always pretty....  It is RARELY comfortable....  It often requires me to place my Isaac on the altar and BELIEVE.  But God's way is ALWAYS better than my way.

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Exodus 14:14

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