soakin up rays.... reading a book... just RELAXING! During these quiet, relaxing moments I prayed a lot too.... And God spoke some reminders to my soul which should give me plenty of blog topics for a few days :) So here's my first installment of Lessons from the RV....
God's Opinion
Right now, I'm in the WORST shape EVER. Years of caring for the needs of others at the expense of my own needs have left me HEAVY, weak, inflexible and cardiovascularly SHAMEFUL. As I laid at the pool, it was hard not to feel sick over how I look and worry INCESSANTLY about "What people are thinking of me." I worry SO much what people are thinking of me at almost ALL times. I worry about people thinking I'm fat. I worry about people thinking my house is a mess. I worry what people are thinking about my children, my husband, my marriage, and on and on and ON.
So this weekend as I was WORRYING about what people think again, and I felt God whispering to me, "You've forgotten about MY opinion." See the ONLY opinion I should care about is God's. Even the opinions of those I hold most dear: my husband, my children, my mom, my sisters, my friends.... the importance of those opinions fades to NOTHING when held next to what I SHOULD be focusing on: God's opinion. I'm pretty sure that God doesn't care too much about the extra large size of my mumu-like fat-girl swimsuit. I am quite confident that God isn't too worried about the cleanliness of my kitchen floor. He isn't sitting up there shaking His finger because my child had a melt-down or because my mini-van makes that WRETCHED noise. He cares about MUCH deeper and more important issues:
*Like is my HEART in the right place when I'm cleaning up yet ANOTHER of Auntie Marge's poo-capades.
*Like how do I handled my child's melt-down... with patience and grace or like a maniac screaming and threatening.
*Like why am I wasting SO much time worrying about what others think of me when I could be PRAYING for others, or sowing His love through kind words and actions, or just CONVERSING with Him.
So I guess the first lesson I downloaded from this weekend was this:
re-focus on God's opinion, Jami, and let all the rest fade into the background....
I hope you and yours had a wonderful holiday weekend. Stay tuned for more Lessons from the RV.
LOVE this. I've gotten pretty good over the years about not letting what people think bother me (developed a nice armor over my thin skin), but the extra step of considering what God thinks of me doesn't always happen. (and for what it's worth, *I* think you are pretty spectacular!)
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