While eye surgery had always kinda been "on the table" I was pretty sure over the past few checkups we had kinda taken that option off the list. With my "mommy sense" (sorta like spidey sense but MUCH better) I always knew Hannah's eyes weren't good enough with her glasses on, but I really didn't even have surgery on my radar screen.
So when the doctor nonchalantly said to her assistant, "Get the packet about eye muscle surgery." the earth fell away under my feet. I had literally not even considered that option for a VERY long time!
While I know this isn't the most earth-shattering news in the grand scheme of things, I keep thinking:
This is MY baby girl!
They are CUTTING into her eyeball!
She's gonna throw a FIT when we have to hand her over to the surgeon (thank GOODNESS that is John's job!).
I have to wait 1 - 2 hours to hear she's okay????
Every time I walk by the family calendar hanging in the kitchen, I catch a glimpse of that appointment on 6/15 at 1:30 Hannah - Dr. P It was supposed to be such an inconsequential checkup, yet it rocked my world.
Here's what's on my heart today friends:
Life is like that! Everything can change in the BLINK of an eye! A diagnosis, a drunk driver, the word "divorce", an officer on your doorstep can turn your world upside down. What do you do when it's all topsy turvy??? You RUN! RUN straight to His arms! Run FAST! No detours! Do not pass GO do not accept $200! Just RUN!
I have been rocking, like a baby with tears trailing down my face, in the arms of my heavenly Father for two days now. I know it will be okay. I know EVERYTHING (even a bad outcome) is in His capable hands. I have witnessed (FIRSTHAND) His marvelous provisions many, many, MANY times. But still I need to rock... Still I need His arms... Still I need HIM.
And here's what you do if your life is NOT topsy turvy right now:
*thank God for the good... sometimes we forget to say the positive. Stop RIGHT NOW and thank God for all that is GOOD in your life! Like:
a beautiful step-daughter getting married tomorrow
a hard-working husband whose health is returning
three beautiful, strong, godly sons
one gorgeous little cheerleading princess
a VIABLE treatment for strabismus
*squeeze the ones you love... squeeze 'em hard and squeeze 'em NOW.... tomorrow is NOT guaranteed to ANY of us... we have NO idea what the future holds. Don't let one second go by in estrangement. Never miss a chance to say I love you. Don't forget to tell the people you love that you love them EVERY SINGLE day.
I guess... I'm back to blogging. Sure wish I were back under better circumstances... like for example: I had become a published author now so I didn't have to waste time on these more menial jobs and was practically a lady of leisure now only writing and taking care of my babies so I had PLENTY of time for blogging. But hey! as I've said before:
You can't always get what you want!
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